time flies by && you dont even realize all you could of done...

"I promise mama imma do it"

This week has been a bit of a reality check for me.
I NEED TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER!

foreal,foreal....
No excuses, time is just ticking away so im pulling back a little
from all the "drinking,smoking,&& partying"
well at least imma try to..

jonathan i haet him so much at times but he opened my eyes alot this week made me see the important shit && what i need to do I love you (:..
Jonathan(12:19:03 PM): Local bums from my area give me hope..not trynna sound funny or fucked up
me (12:19:11 PM): lol i feel you
Jonathan(12:20:00 PM): I know bumz now..dat use 2 b millionares in wash heightzz....
me (12:20:09 PM): dead ass?
Jonathan (12:20:10 PM): Dat r cocaine addicts...n bums now
JohnSportFlyShyt (12:20:25 PM): Yupp
Natt112 (12:20:36 PM): damnnn
Natt112 (12:20:39 PM): thats so sad
Jonathan (12:20:46 PM): Yup......
Jonathan(12:20:54 PM): So imagine wat could happen 2 us
me (12:21:01 PM): hell yeah
Jonathan (12:21:02 PM): Dat we not even close 2 da millionss
Jonathan (12:21:30 PM): Gotta appriecate everythin u got....
Jonathan (12:21:47 PM): N gotta thrive for wat u believe in
Jonathan (12:22:07 PM): Shyt gonna b hard.....at first....
Jonathan(12:22:15 PM): But once u got it
Jonathan (12:22:20 PM): Is gonna run smooth
*good convo <33




He can get it RAWWW in the street infront of my grandma, church?
WHEREVER BABY
WOOOOOOOOOOO,, watching transformers was like eye candy smfh shiaa <33

all you have to give is unnfair anger....

my mother formely know as "el voz"
this lady makes me gooo bonkersss most especially when she takes out
her anger at me, when i havent done anything to her it makes me feel like a crash dummy she constantly just abuses me on an emotionally level, she screams sooo much like im NOT DEATH BITCH how about you lower your voice damn i know weere dominican but, damn son relaxxxxxx daddy......


ehhh on a different note iliana marcelle ortega is gonna be here to visit very soon && supper exited its been so long my dear friend <33333......

Take me away away away away......

i wanna be here already with bathing suit sand on my toes cute shades && extra sunscreen, uugh i need to get away so bad, i miss my cousins so bad i miss my country man :-/....


new york is giving me the wackest summer weather ever
sheesh smh.


"Estoy aqui pero mi mente este alla"

I expect the worst it hurts less.....

sooo, today is fathers day great joy -_-
it just reminds me of how much of a dick
my sperm donor is...

To all the ppl that have great fathers
im happy for you, apreciate what you have because alot of us dont have it..

On a different note, my little experiment with this guy, i feel myself attracted to him now -_-, hes soo weird but, if hes any type of attracted im the nigga in this situation im always stuck in some type of odd situation uuugh it upsets me so much let's see where this goes.....

"boy" (12:34:07 PM): well do you wanna come
me (12:34:20 PM): sure
me(12:34:36 PM): i dididnt think you would wanna chill with a girl your not going to fuck
"boy" (12:34:58 PM): well lmaoo woow -__-
"boy" (12:35:03 PM): am not sayin nothing
"boy" (12:35:09 PM): am stay shut =x

*Liquor on a sunday <3
my liver needs help......

&&& so i dream.....

this poem is so
beautiful it captivates me
everytime i hear it favorite poem
i can think of, && even tho i belive i wont
ever get married i'd love to hear this at my wedding <3

&& there's only one name that comes
to mind =X

ahhh;; blah blah blah

Closer ft. Andreena Mills - Drake

ii normally dont post songs on my blog but this song, i relate to it so much especially thispart right here "I promise mama
I'mma do it cause I know I put you through it (I know I put you through it baby)
And I just want you to sit around with ya friends at the dinner table and say "my baby's famous and I knew it"
And it wasn't nothin' to it" old drake song so awsome part of the reason why i havent gave up on my goal =]

courtesy of -jahaira b.

On a different note...
Im stoked for saturday liquor,liquor,liquor WEED &&
did i say liquor =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


"pretty much how ive been feeling lately;;
I wanna drain out my emotions to the point
where love && hate does not phase me one cold hearted
bitch with a heart made out of steel"
-Natalie p.

Forbiden,confusing,unintentional love...

Your a dose of my own medicine, your me && im you
you complete my missing piece the ying to my yang your weird your silly, your uncaring, you respect me && show you care, you give me a natural high i just love life when im with you, you make my life an adventure never know what were doing next your a dog an asshole, a dick but yett i smile the hardest when im with you, to bad your not mine to bad i have you but i dont so my heart feels complete like nothing else is ever needed but then the end of the of the day comes & im still without you.


"I HATE YOU, BUT I LOVE YOU"
&& this feeling is so bitter sweet
but i never want you to leave your my great happiness but my terrible sadness your my biggest contradiction i dont think you'll ever know the power you hold.