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It was an awsome night, party hopping with my girls!!

i wanna thank jajie && tashy for pullingdown my skirt when it was needed <3

Soooo, we started of at this bachelor party/party the guys there were so awsome && respectfulnot to mention all the free grey goose && bud :D..

Then we headed off to matt's shit which was oh so poppin aswell dancehall queen right herecouldent stop dancing smh

Hoesz;;I love you punk :]

Kat is a boost && this pic is hilarious

Studda budda!! =]

Jenn && me got it in all night ;-]

Dilians dress was oh so poppin

Iloveher

We was beyond SMACKEDD..

Very much needed night :-]

THE END;

What is it that i want <3..

For the first time in a very long time i feel myself wanting a relationship someone, i can bond with && create a connection with,but i want it all to be real i hate all this fake love bullshit -_- it blows mines how theres guys you'll meet that will dead confess a whole love confession to you when, they've only known you for about 2 days, i hate all that, && im tired of all the fucking around like its fun and all but at the end of the day your still alone, a mess around is not gonna take you out or listen to your bullshit problems non the less care about enough BLAHHHHHHHHHH; im just trying to find something i feel satisfied with.

mom....

Dear mother,

all i ive ever wanted was your unconditional love all i wanted was to hear an "iloveyou", "im proud of you" but all i hear is your disapointments towards me, i know i havent been the best of the best, but IM YOUR DAUGHTER i know you have no reason to be proud of me && all ive done is make things worse, and made you cry believe me making you cry is the most hurtful thing ive seen but im trying! im trying mom im trying to make it better im trying so hard for you to see, that i need your affection i need your support as much as i try to brush it off like i dont care all i end up doing is, crying i crave affection from you i always have why is that so hard?

Interesting conclusion

&& you'd think there the ones who would guard him when your not there....

but no, they wanna wait until you turn your back and take what you have, or want or desire with no remorse in there veins.
&& yet they call you a "friend" i want you to tell me whats the definition of a friend? because i may be mistaken but i feel like i can leave a "friend" in the same room with something i value && trust them not to take it...


Maybe im exagerating so be it!
you feel what you feel i'm simply fed up with it...

"there's so many fish in the sea why take the ones that have already been caught"
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*This is why trust becomes such an issue sometimes*