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Closer ft. Andreena Mills - Drake

ii normally dont post songs on my blog but this song, i relate to it so much especially thispart right here "I promise mama
I'mma do it cause I know I put you through it (I know I put you through it baby)
And I just want you to sit around with ya friends at the dinner table and say "my baby's famous and I knew it"
And it wasn't nothin' to it" old drake song so awsome part of the reason why i havent gave up on my goal =]

courtesy of -jahaira b.

On a different note...
Im stoked for saturday liquor,liquor,liquor WEED &&
did i say liquor =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


"pretty much how ive been feeling lately;;
I wanna drain out my emotions to the point
where love && hate does not phase me one cold hearted
bitch with a heart made out of steel"
-Natalie p.

Forbiden,confusing,unintentional love...

Your a dose of my own medicine, your me && im you
you complete my missing piece the ying to my yang your weird your silly, your uncaring, you respect me && show you care, you give me a natural high i just love life when im with you, you make my life an adventure never know what were doing next your a dog an asshole, a dick but yett i smile the hardest when im with you, to bad your not mine to bad i have you but i dont so my heart feels complete like nothing else is ever needed but then the end of the of the day comes & im still without you.


"I HATE YOU, BUT I LOVE YOU"
&& this feeling is so bitter sweet
but i never want you to leave your my great happiness but my terrible sadness your my biggest contradiction i dont think you'll ever know the power you hold.

-_-

Im just tired of feeling less than, tired of feeling like im worthless, like im ugly , like im nothing, like im just some stupid skinny dumb bitch noone really appreciates im SICK && TIRED i wanna punch everybody in there face i wanna dissapear of the face of the earth it just sucks madd dick how, ppl are soo iignorant fuck you, fuck her, fuck him, fuck me, fuck EVRYTHING && EVERYONE......

Awsome monday's && your Soulmate 2 things that you may never find.

Today was a poppin monday with darriot tasha && naj we went from being bored to driving for nutcrackers && making madd jokes to chilling in the park it was a fun day peacefull to get away from the typical drama i encounter. =D


&& as for "him" he's such a nigga but he's so awsome && as much as i tell myself we can never be, i see myself with him perfectly he knows me so well & i know him he's to cool for my hearts own good && as much as i wanna get away i cant let go.


TODAY WAS A BOOST <3.

Sunday! afternoon easily became a sunday night....

AHHH; vansz bbq with my hoes
it was kinda ehh; at first but we found some nut crackers && bud talked shit about every lame there, made it fun<3sunday>






TE AMO TASHANDA! <3>"After awhile being hurt is just to much work"


feeling the same exact way starts to get annoying specially when its a hurtfull thing so the easy way out is to no just not give a fuck that may pretty hard sometimes, but life has to go on wether you want it to or not being cold hearted is the easiest and painless way to go i feel you mami thats why im right there with you FUCK THE WORLD, FUCK YOU, FUCK LIFE but most of all FUCK NIGGAS! =]

The friendship the "love" the dissapointment <3

The "love"
now im in a perdicament that i never thought i would be in
im the "other girl" to someone that i see myself falling in love with to someone that as much as i may try not to admit can hurt me in the long run, but im still there in the passenger seat gazing into his eyes, the more we speak the deeper i fall, he seems to care he always calls but at the end of it all his girl is the one he chose its always just a HUGE dissapointment.

The friendship
soo lately i have been slacking on my schoolwork, my life my future
&& adriana called me out on it "listen natalie wake up at 8am tomorrow you need to stop slacking its been to long" so i tell her you go it G because she's right so we get up that early friday and drag ourselves to figure out my school life and after were done from all that we go to the park for a walk because we were bored and had nothing better else to do we ended up on the swings i felt like a little kid again it was awsome then we did this hour "hike" to see this little red light house all the way at the other side yes were lossers :) the view was great tho

The model life is desire

Modeling is beautiful,

it's art its raw its honesty in a brutal way

&& the fashion oh; the fashion i love <3!

Btw, these chanel runway shoes are AWOSOME, i

wish i had those so i can wear em and shoot every bum ass

motherfucker i encounter which almost every male i know to bad there worth 1,000 of dollars =/