Sentimental days

So as i sit in my job eating a hershey sundae pie
that didn't even belong to me, doing everything except what im getting paid for listening to my coworker talk about how much she loves her boyfriend and all the great things he does made me think about me && my pathetic love life, and how everynight all i seem to feel is lonelyness, and i wish it wasn't that way i wish, i didnt care about my love life and everyguy i seem to encounter manages to just fool me into thinking one thing and then they just dissapear from my life i dont ask for much just someone to give me attention and make me feel loved, someone who loves my retarted crazy ass for me like my friends do, i mean this is probably every girls complaint in life but what can i say this is about the only thing i feel im missing i got great friends, a job now all i need is a good dick deliverer and ill be a happy camper, sometimes i wonder if sex fucks things up when your talking to a guy or maybe im just wack at sex && at love or talking to guys period maybe it's just always gonna be just natalie with no && just natalie.......