Awsome monday's && your Soulmate 2 things that you may never find.

Today was a poppin monday with darriot tasha && naj we went from being bored to driving for nutcrackers && making madd jokes to chilling in the park it was a fun day peacefull to get away from the typical drama i encounter. =D


&& as for "him" he's such a nigga but he's so awsome && as much as i tell myself we can never be, i see myself with him perfectly he knows me so well & i know him he's to cool for my hearts own good && as much as i wanna get away i cant let go.


TODAY WAS A BOOST <3.

Sunday! afternoon easily became a sunday night....

AHHH; vansz bbq with my hoes
it was kinda ehh; at first but we found some nut crackers && bud talked shit about every lame there, made it fun<3sunday>






TE AMO TASHANDA! <3>"After awhile being hurt is just to much work"


feeling the same exact way starts to get annoying specially when its a hurtfull thing so the easy way out is to no just not give a fuck that may pretty hard sometimes, but life has to go on wether you want it to or not being cold hearted is the easiest and painless way to go i feel you mami thats why im right there with you FUCK THE WORLD, FUCK YOU, FUCK LIFE but most of all FUCK NIGGAS! =]

The friendship the "love" the dissapointment <3

The "love"
now im in a perdicament that i never thought i would be in
im the "other girl" to someone that i see myself falling in love with to someone that as much as i may try not to admit can hurt me in the long run, but im still there in the passenger seat gazing into his eyes, the more we speak the deeper i fall, he seems to care he always calls but at the end of it all his girl is the one he chose its always just a HUGE dissapointment.

The friendship
soo lately i have been slacking on my schoolwork, my life my future
&& adriana called me out on it "listen natalie wake up at 8am tomorrow you need to stop slacking its been to long" so i tell her you go it G because she's right so we get up that early friday and drag ourselves to figure out my school life and after were done from all that we go to the park for a walk because we were bored and had nothing better else to do we ended up on the swings i felt like a little kid again it was awsome then we did this hour "hike" to see this little red light house all the way at the other side yes were lossers :) the view was great tho

The model life is desire

Modeling is beautiful,

it's art its raw its honesty in a brutal way

&& the fashion oh; the fashion i love <3!

Btw, these chanel runway shoes are AWOSOME, i

wish i had those so i can wear em and shoot every bum ass

motherfucker i encounter which almost every male i know to bad there worth 1,000 of dollars =/

Discoveries and realizations

So today was a good day, didnt really do much but chilled with awsome people were we, sat there and analyzed things basicly being real about shit and thts what i love, ppl you can count on to tell it like it is well we realized that alot shit isnt how it seems....


&& in the process of all this
we also realized i have a big head flip flop wearing stalker;;
theres nothing like a nice sunny day my puppy and greats TRUE friends :)

Friendship...

Friendship is a beautiful thing great thing..
but you also gotta deal with the bad things to and
always be there for your friend if theres a problem adress it
and clear it up no need to keep the hostility inside thats when bitterness comes and friendship start to crash..

Im very attached to my friends i love em
dearly they make my day and choose my moods
smh that may be a bad thing but they make me feel loved
&& i love em with all my heart regardless of the dumb shit we fight about
the memories we make and the nonsense we do i forever keep with me this sounds mad sappy and shit, but it's true they help create my memories when im 90 with a hunchback and grandkids all there gonna hear is the dumb shit i would do with my friend, from getting mad hyper of cocacola && just bugging the fuck out with iliana♥to getting supper drunk at tashy tash's house && just talking mad shit about feelings after every1 left♥to adriana almost washing some girl cuz she came out her face♥to me && carla declaring our love to each other like drunken fools♥ to me and jen walking all of harlem && getting harrased by mad dudes..

this is why i love sexinthecity even tho is just a show i truly feel like i represents friendship how it shud be they argue && fight but always there like when carie was gonna fuck mr.big, and miranda was going to give birth she dropped every for her maybe imjust to sentimental or i love way to much but i love my FRIENDS!

Soul Mate....

when theres a huge bug in your room and you need someone to kill it

at 2:00am theres not many who will sneak out there house bring a huge shoe and bug spray come from 146 to 103rd just to calm you down, i know someone who would tho♥♥♥♥
*te amo adriana*

Your there thru it all even the terrible times your mentally challenged like me my piercing buddy<33... :-*